The way I love her

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I am a selfish lover.

I love her
Deeply, and passionately
But that love belongs to me.

I keep it, greedily
Not even letting her know
I love her at all.

I do not desire her
And I am not her well-wisher.
I do not wish to talk
Or sit with her.
It feels uncomfortable
To have her around.

All I want is to love her
And be left alone with it

For I love loving her
Just like that.
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